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Sunday, May 24th, 2009

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Time:11:14 pm.
show me your one liner
significance
signposts of post traumatic symptoms
mistake me for a kind of gentleman
the kinder sort
who passes by
an open window
on a cool summer day

fake some more of that
home cooked
meandering to and fro, bite the bullet
by the by
give more than you take
sometimes I wonder

Tuesday, February 17th, 2009

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Time:8:56 pm.
There is no check in counter
no gas station attendant
the rules are sometimes bent, sometimes broken
what is status quo today may be inappropriate tomorrow.

Sometimes a whisper is just as loud as shouting.

Restless children will eventually grow up
to have children of their own, who will be equally restless
and they will wonder in retrospect, if when they were children
how is it that they were so restless.


Tuesday, February 3rd, 2009

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Time:8:07 pm.

do not rest your hand
on my weary head
do not waste your time
with my excuses for yesterday

a passing glance on the freeway
those lamplights are so blinding
blinking in synchronization, a mystery
they are the last of the few remaining

fourthly

in mid sentence she stopped
and tilted her head
still maintaining eye contact
i wondered what she was ---

as the bruise healed
those mistakes became apparent
and with each brush stroke
a masterpiece was on the horizon

deep under many layers
of would have been's
and should have done's
thoughts that were never vocalized
actions that never were

trickery and subterfuge
hide from mirrors and windstorms
cold hard aluminum makes a decent grave
empty bottles tell such a tale

throw away the past
only remember
never again
sorry

Monday, January 19th, 2009

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Time:1:15 am.
IN BELLEVUE
you towers surround
/ with more in the making
toothpicks to wedge against the skyline
wind steadily blowing
/ down city streets, through carefully planted
aesthetically pleasing trees and shrubbery

daily I make my rounds
/ the minutes take more and more
seconds like drops of rain from above
time slowly gathers to an apex
/ ready to pounce on the next unsuspecting
passerby that thinks aloud with open eyes

COMING HOME
I play a game
(against myself, maybe others)
and rarely win

wheels spin tirelessly
and the irony of tireless tires
is not lost upon me

at every off ramp
and every street-lamp
and every right on red
and every yield on green
and every other vehicle passed
I . . .

ON HOME
Exhausted, another day
with both hands, one shoe is removed at a time
slinking my pants off, replacing my shirt
I lay around for just a little while
I smile. I breathe in. I enjoy.

And then I rise, and prepare for the next.
everything in it's place, a place for everything.
preparations for the long journey,
so early in the morning - tomorrow.

Next day's clothes where they need to be,
teeth brushed, hair combed, alarm set.
gather those blankets and pillows for bed.

With the setting of the sun, my eyes draw heavy.
lay my head down and quietly drift today off.

Everything is going to be O.K.

Thursday, January 15th, 2009

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Time:6:49 pm.

Don't bully me with your
stop motion pantomimes

Don't patronize me with your
love, stop calling for help when you are---
As each pattern makes itself evident
we were forced deeper underground
the louder the thunder rose
you could feel in in your bones, in your soul
even the slaved looked suspicious

Passed the last gate what
could only be imagined as
live children being skinned and flayed
rang down the hallways and bounced around us
the echoes etching themselves in our collective psyche

Few from time to time
would wander off the well lit path
looking as if they had forgotten something important:

They did not return.

By the time we had reached our
destination it was down to me
and two others : A doctor and priest.
I could assume both walked this well lit path
with hopes they could help those in need -
to cure the ailment which had created this place
in some fashion or another.

I was looking for the person in charge,
and where to sign up.

Wednesday, January 14th, 2009

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Time:3:05 pm.
it is a problem, in this condition
this time and place, the conclusion is strained
almost as a wind of disarray amongst the tired and prejudice
the predicament is a sure sign, always is


Your confusion only furthers the agitation.
Growing ever stronger with each heartbeat that passes.
Choke it down quick before it gathers too much.
They are all counting on you, don't let them down now.

Sorry, we no longer carry those anymore.

it is in the decisions that we make on a daily basis
and the routine we take in our commonplace lives
that set us apart from those around us, however
also does it unify us in our everyday complacency


Tuesday, January 13th, 2009

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Time:2:46 pm.
onward you children
tread these waters slow

just because it was made that way
does not mean
that it is the way it should be used

if I hear
that infernal bleeping
one more time


with the tide as it comes
and goes out to the sea
break each wave as a new day

on pins and needles
tips of sharpened pencils
you'll find tiny vessels
lost in microscopic oceans
and if you squint just right
you may be able to help them
find their way home

" Don't look down if you're afraid of heights! "

Monday, January 12th, 2009

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Time:7:58 pm.

Tell me how you really feel
what those glass orbs in your skull
really see ( IF ANYTHING AT ALL )

show me the ways of indiscretion
and morose composition / how can I
casually push aside the doubts of every---

"Pillars!" - you cry! These pillars, you speak of
wrought iron, cast in a heat of ire
and contempt
will rust, chip, & one day fall over onto itself
as all things born of spite tend to do

mechanisms of purpose that drive those special desires
that whisper the sweet promises of tomorrow, or tonight
oh what a soft caress /
such a gentle lullaby to be heard /
tidings one would keep forever and ever, if only---

hollow in nature and desperate in tone
hopefully someone will become familiar with /
upside down and right side up
warm or cold - always there when the need arose
grind these remains of mine
into bread and spread on the butter

the world is full of so much ( SO MUCH! )
and experience attributes so little (so little... )
so little can a brush stroke recall that of an early morning
no words can replace the silence after a heavy rain
the clink of an empty bottle against more to spill

those heavenly creatures never could tell the difference
let loose torrents of confusion and watch them jitter

push away those who care /
with a wall of honesty /
blind them with reason /
shock them with logic /
spill into deep caverns /
of the obvious facts /

plenty of axioms to go around, here boy!
you can pick and choose from the truth you want to believe.
the world makes perfect sense, didn't you know?
with everything having a reason, and a place -
everything a place, and a reason.

mathematicians,
what do they know about beauty?

Sunday, January 11th, 2009

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Time:8:05 pm.


Boys don't cry
and the diamonds in your eyes do shine!
" Button, button - who has the button? "
Everyone wants to be the reason
but nobody wants to take The Fall
all hands up when volunteers are called for
with every chair empty on opening night
But girls, oh they can do as they please
as kittens with a scent of 'nip
they're always on the prowl for more more more more

silly little things - as the blind lead the deaf
why settle for someone who will
what bothers her the most is My ----
those children of Yours
deserve so much more
Finally:
Take one part verbally abusive father
mix with three parts overbearing mother
throw in a dash of sibling rivalry and taunting
simmer for a few years and soon enough

You'll have yourself an average woman
with average thoughts about average things
who'll listen to any average garden snake
and will eat any average apple
from any average tree.

Saturday, January 10th, 2009

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Time:11:23 pm.
Oh,
My.
So you're up to those old tricks again, hum?
Back to the tick tock
ticking of the clock
passing the minutes by seconds
and the hours by minutes
What sweet misery you'll desire!
But oh, yes...
Oh, my...

those days of yonder when you could sit and spurn
a world on it's hindlegs, I daresay you wouldn't dare
the candlewick cannot be lit any further,
just throw in the towel --
demons down hallways are all but asleep these days
and the buring ( OH HOW YOU BURNED! ) is naught but embers
and dust,
collecting:
but what've you got to lose?
if nothing more a pleasant distraction -
another medicore cover
patches on open wounds

toss this aside we'll need no salt today
the tendrils run far deeper than you'd ever imagine
oh who cares what the wicker-wack backroads will say
we will pave new roads to roam,
and even if we have to cut down every
tree, or
home, or
soul...
cut down every single fuckin' one of 'em, we will.

Oh, yes. Oh, my. We will.

Wednesday, December 10th, 2008

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Time:10:52 am.
ok - what exactly is this?



their video reviews are pretty funny though.

Sunday, August 3rd, 2008

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Time:9:19 am.
this weight
you large time laden sorrow of mine
oh you heavy burden of multitudes untold

bound with such potential
look how you crackle with anticipation
next turn followed by the faint static hiss

merry now, pass through the light
silver lining all the way down your spine
are we awake and without dreams
or living dreams with no intent of waking

Friday, June 27th, 2008

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Time:5:59 pm.
oh and you should totally look into this:


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Time:4:05 pm.
http://www.sega.com/games/?g=238

honestly. i cannot wait.

Monday, June 16th, 2008

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Time:11:34 pm.
I just bought this :

http://www.daskeyboard.com/specifications.php

Wednesday, June 11th, 2008

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Time:12:24 am.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WL1hlzLsUaU
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TtqftJlFpvk
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eK4V99c0IpY ( http://tinyurl.com/hdues NSFW )

Saturday, May 31st, 2008

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Time:8:40 pm.
brief updates.

i hate car accidents and i cannot for the life of me believe that i rear-ended someone.

the best part about her being over here is when she shuts up because she's suckin' dick.

waking up at 7am is way, way too early.

i have a headache that just won't quit.

Tuesday, May 13th, 2008

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Time:5:13 pm.
this page makes my heart beat heavily.

gaaaah.

Monday, April 28th, 2008

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Time:5:09 pm.
just bought every season of Babylon 5.

Fred Meyer. 25$ a season. I'd suggest you checking it out.

Thursday, April 24th, 2008

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Time:5:42 pm.


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As James, you have a natural interest in the welfare of your fellow man, and a desire to help and serve others in a humanitarian way. You are responsible and generous, although somewhat scattering and disorganized at times. Any jobs requiring systematic and conscientious effort, or involving any form of drudgery, dismay you. In your work, you would seek a position offering self-expression through contact with people, such as sales or teaching, or a position giving scope to your creative, artistic talents. You are good-natured and likeable, and people tend to confide in you and seek your advice in personal problems. Others sense your sincere interest and desire to help, and you can always be counted on to see the bright side of any problem. You enjoy making others happy and you never let your own problems "get you down" for any length of time, even though you do tend to worry too much at times. Your optimism can be a source of inspiration to others as well as yourself. In close personal relationships you are usually thoughtful and considerate. However, your natural interest in others, coupled with your sympathetic reaction to problems, could draw you into emotional situations which may be difficult to get out of. Health weakness would appear as skin conditions or ailments relative to the liver. A tendency to overeat quick-energy foods aggravates any health problems.


Your first name of Markus has given you a pleasant, easy-going, friendly nature. Personal contacts are important to you. In situations where you are serving others, demonstrating or instructing, you have the patience to go into details that someone else may not think to be important. In your association with others, you are often limited to the more mundane happenings and little personal problems that can be so frustrating to those of an active, dynamic nature. You desire to create system and order in your environment but are inclined to become side-tracked and socialize when you should be working. Your ambitions are not large, as you lack confidence in your own abilities and would sooner not take a chance. You are often at odds with yourself, knowing what you should do, but finding it hard to find the initiative and will power to do it. Liking to plan and think ahead, you do not act impulsively and do not like to have your plans or routine interfered with. You seek the advice of others when making a decision and prefer to work for others, rather than carry the full responsibility yourself. This name limits imagination and vision. Health weaknesses affect the intestinal tract, resulting in constipation and associated disorders. There is also a weakness in the fluid functions of the body, causing either swelling of the legs and ankles, phlebitis, or varicose veins.

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